I took down the tree
And I wasn’t so sad
I put the decorations away
And it wasn’t too bad
I did that Christmas deal
I felt it was all very real
And I did not go crazy
I was not a bit lazy
It all went off quite well
Not like other times I could tell
I could tell you of times that were not very nice
Like a turd that’s covered in sugar and spice
With all the lovely Christmas tradition
Still it felt like some kind of perdition
Somehow I was never quite good enough
Never seemed to have had the right stuff
Always lacking and so insecure
Very confused and nothing for sure
Stress just piled up and piled up some more
And there wasn’t a way to just shut that door
But this year was different
Things aren’t the same
I’m totally in charge and
I run my own game
I remembered the reason
The truth of the season
And rejoiced in my heart
Which was not torn apart
But happy inside
In a way I can’t hide
And it didn’t matter what I had not
Because the main thing that I got
Wasn’t a gift that came from the store
Wasn’t a thing that makes you want more
It was a calmness and knowing
How love just keeps growing
Christmas was for real, my friend
A wonderful feeling that doesn’t end
As I took down the tree, not feeling sad
And not feeling awful, not even a tad.